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Join date: Oct 16, 2018
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Hello fellow women warriors! What a comfort it is to know that we are not alone in this world that can often-times feel lonely and desolate. A little background on me; I am 32 years old and I married my sweetheart at the age of 28. We had been together for 3 years so we pretty much started actively ttc about a month after we got married. Well, like so many others, it didn't go as planned. After a full unsuccessful year, we decided to seek professional help. We met with a fertility doctor and immediately started taking Clomid. This didn't work either... so we switched to Letrozole. Another couple months passed... still no pregnancies. So we tried three full rounds of IUI back to back. Nothing. We took a step back and attempted a more natural path, and I did acupuncture for 6 months straight. Although it helped with my stress levels, it did not accomplish the one thing we longed for. So, reluctantly, we turned to IVF. In October 2017, I started the long and painful process. It has been a full year, and I endured 6 full rounds of IVF (1 fresh cycle and 5 frozen transfers) ALL of which were unsuccessful. We did get pregnant on our third cycle, but it sadly ended in a miscarriage at only 6 weeks. I have been through countless painful tests, all of which turn out normal. We have been diagnosed with unexplained infertility. As so many of you know, this journey is heartbreaking. It can leave you feeling utterly destroyed and broken. We have decided to take a break for a while, and try to get back to feeling like ourselves again; enjoy each other and the blessings we do have. It's always in the back of my mind though. I recently started reflexology, as a means to de-compress and attempt to stabilize my body and hormones again (12 straight months of IVF does a number on the body). I'm already feeling better, and I work very hard every day to live in the moment. I don't have control over my infertility. But I can do have control over HOW I choose to respond to it. Even with that being said...it is still a struggle every day. Every pregnancy announcement is a punch to the stomach and leaves my heart aching. It's a sad feeling to have invested so much into something and have nothing to show for it. I still long to be a mother, and I'm not ready to give up yet. I'd love to hear your stories! There is strength in numbers and although we are surrounded by women who 'accidentally get pregnant' or 'weren't trying' .... WE are 1 in 8 and WE are a Tribe! Our journey's prepare us for motherhood in a way that others cannot understand. We have already paid the ultimate sacrifice for our children (those that have been born or those that are still waiting to make their appearance).

Jessa Hansell
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