I have never been one of those women who felt like motherhood would define me. I always wanted to have an established career, a solid relationship, and a proper living space before I brought a child into this world.
As a result, Rowan (my husband) and I started down the TTC road when I was 33 years old. I understand in certain parts of the world, this is very "late" to start trying, but here in the liberal bubble of San Francisco, it is considered young.
After 10 months of trying naturally and using all the holistic methods out there (brazil nuts, pineapple core, legs up, home-insemination kits, acupuncture, etc.) we made the decision to seek help with a Fertility Clinic.
The first clinic we went to felt like a scene from "The Jetsons" - the animated sitcom from the 1960's where a family lives in space. It was shiny white acrylic walls wrapped in vinyl with modern art hanging at every corner. The waiting room chairs had a retro vibe with bright orange cushions and funky house plants in every corner. It felt like the hippest spot in town and everyone was there.
We had two IUI procedures done at The Jetsons Clinic and then quickly realized that we were just part of a conveyor belt of patients. We didn't receive the individual care that we had hoped for and decided to switch to Dr. Aimee Eyvazzadeh - aka The Egg Whisperer.
We are currently starting our first round of IVF with Dr. Aimee and we couldn't be happier. This journey has so many plot twists and I really think finding the right doctor that you trust is half the battle.
We aren't pregnant yet, but we are still hopeful. Life really never works out the way that you imagined it to be, but through this process I've been able to find grace through acceptance of what it is.
You can follow along on Millie's journey below: